me. and only me.
alone,
on this lonely road.
i wish to break away.
from the pureness my life...
you grabbed my hand.
you screamed my name.
i felt it so real.
but i know it wont last forever.
its just me.
my life path,my destiny.
i feel you beside me.
bt you aint there.
you left me.
leaving me nowhere to go.
dreaming my way thru.
searching for something that i know aint coming true.
its just me.
alone being isolated from rationalness of the world.
how i wish you know whats on the inside.
you never came to realise how much you meant to me.
its just me.
caught between the stars and the moon
the moment enjoying the breeze and the fake laughter.
just how i wish it would last forever.
but no! its just a dream.
a blank nothing beneath me.
im stuck in great depression.
nobody knows and nobody cares.
just one fine day.
how i wish you came to know the truth.
realising my dreams and came to fulfil it too.
but its too late.
what i going to tell you is "dream your way through".
and you wil know how its feels being me.
caught in a world of horrible pasts.
im deadly sorry.
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percik air laut menampar dingding perahu
bagai tingkah terbitan irama silamku
merah mataku bergenang berkaca-kaca
pabila lagu kenangan bermain semula
cintaku dihambat bagai kasih yang luka
sepotong kasih hapus didusta
bagai bunga kasih yang layu ditalu
kerna cinta hanya permainan mu
hapuskanlah air matamu oh wahai sayang
ku tahu ia hanya pura-puraan
tertolak ke lorong kecewa tangkai hatiku putus
setelah dimain oleh kekata halus
kau janji setia
kau janji lautan kasih
janjian manis yang hingga kini ku tak masih
dapat rasakan
bagai pelabuhan kasih yang usang
di lautan kasih yang tak bertepian
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This blood turned into tears
A broken heart runs my body
Dripping forth until I give my life
I have become a sacrifice
It hurts me just to think of you
I void the pain that is unbarring
To know that I take these sufferings from you
back
forever your eyes will hold the memory
i saw your heart as it overtook me
we tried so hard to understand and reason
but in that one moment i gave my heart away..
i gave my heart away
in that moment i gave my heart away....
with that perfect breath where my mind lay beside me
and all i knew is what had overtaken me
with no reason i am comforted by inability to understand
forever your eyes will hold the memory
i saw your heart as it overtook me
we tried so hard to understand and reason
but in that one moment i gave my heart away..i gave my heart away
in that moment i gave my heart away....
FOREVER your eyes will hold the memory
forever your eyes will hold the memory....when i wake from this dream
will your smile still open my heart
and leave me transparent?
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006
1:32 PM
Blogged by.. !●Γ℮ÐĦд●!™ @ 1:32 PM
play,late nights,fun,eating all the good stuff are me...
i feel the indirect pleasure of making myself or someone else amused to the the things i do...
thats wad i love really...
like someone rolling on the floor laughing at me for the "stop_it" things i do or someone putting a fake smile onto their white faces whenever i annoy him or her...
i mean thats just what i do rite....
and so i thought ....
but u see...those are just barely me...
under this skin that never coming off me...
im a wreak...totally.
u dont see the sorrows i had to put up with nor the pain that i had to stitch myself to heal...
all you see is the SKIN....like the mp3 player on your personal computers or laptop wadever...you can changethe skins for all you like..but beneath it all...the programme files are jacked up,cramped thightly to each other...like a swarm of bees living in the same colony..
i noe it sounds so crappy and mindless...but its a CONFESSIONS of a person in DENIAL...
denial of what ...its for me to pull myself out...
im sorry to spill my true self like this..its so unprofessional i think..so ...sorry guys....
i dont see the point of having a relationship animore....
not that i dont want to but it all seemed pointless and a matter of satisfying one's sexual and personal cravings....things like money and stuff...
to me,its all that plus to have fun and to show off the person u're attatched to...rubbish...
relationships are supposed to reflect the love that a couple have for each other...nowadays,kidds makes it look like just to have sex and ended marrying at a very young age since the baby is almost due and not think about the near future....
thats not rite...
it make a bad impressions of other young couple who really see the true meaning of relationship and its purpose....
not fair at all..
hey im not against relationships and all but we have to see and learn to accept the fact of it now...
ahah...my fren once said...redha...kau single kan...asal ah?...nak aku kenal2 kan bdk pompan nie?
well...im all that single but hey,its really not my fate to find the one im lookin for.i dont wanna waste my time on girls that just declare our passion for love and not doing anithing about it..not animore,never again...i noe my fren ment good,but i've already got my contacts and as i said before,they dont realise the true meaning of a relationship...
argh..enuff about love and finding the rite one...so miss "right one" just appear can?ahaha..
so.i think i better put my happy skin on quickly.i dont want my frens to see the unsightly insides of me...
btw,im not desperate..dont get me wrong...
nor i crave for attention..
i just wann be me ..AGAIN.
MY LIFE,MY STYLE
