me. and only me.
alone,
on this lonely road.
i wish to break away.
from the pureness my life...
you grabbed my hand.
you screamed my name.
i felt it so real.
but i know it wont last forever.
its just me.
my life path,my destiny.
i feel you beside me.
bt you aint there.
you left me.
leaving me nowhere to go.
dreaming my way thru.
searching for something that i know aint coming true.
its just me.
alone being isolated from rationalness of the world.
how i wish you know whats on the inside.
you never came to realise how much you meant to me.
its just me.
caught between the stars and the moon
the moment enjoying the breeze and the fake laughter.
just how i wish it would last forever.
but no! its just a dream.
a blank nothing beneath me.
im stuck in great depression.
nobody knows and nobody cares.
just one fine day.
how i wish you came to know the truth.
realising my dreams and came to fulfil it too.
but its too late.
what i going to tell you is "dream your way through".
and you wil know how its feels being me.
caught in a world of horrible pasts.
im deadly sorry.
back
percik air laut menampar dingding perahu
bagai tingkah terbitan irama silamku
merah mataku bergenang berkaca-kaca
pabila lagu kenangan bermain semula
cintaku dihambat bagai kasih yang luka
sepotong kasih hapus didusta
bagai bunga kasih yang layu ditalu
kerna cinta hanya permainan mu
hapuskanlah air matamu oh wahai sayang
ku tahu ia hanya pura-puraan
tertolak ke lorong kecewa tangkai hatiku putus
setelah dimain oleh kekata halus
kau janji setia
kau janji lautan kasih
janjian manis yang hingga kini ku tak masih
dapat rasakan
bagai pelabuhan kasih yang usang
di lautan kasih yang tak bertepian
back
This blood turned into tears
A broken heart runs my body
Dripping forth until I give my life
I have become a sacrifice
It hurts me just to think of you
I void the pain that is unbarring
To know that I take these sufferings from you
back
forever your eyes will hold the memory
i saw your heart as it overtook me
we tried so hard to understand and reason
but in that one moment i gave my heart away..
i gave my heart away
in that moment i gave my heart away....
with that perfect breath where my mind lay beside me
and all i knew is what had overtaken me
with no reason i am comforted by inability to understand
forever your eyes will hold the memory
i saw your heart as it overtook me
we tried so hard to understand and reason
but in that one moment i gave my heart away..i gave my heart away
in that moment i gave my heart away....
FOREVER your eyes will hold the memory
forever your eyes will hold the memory....when i wake from this dream
will your smile still open my heart
and leave me transparent?
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Monday, February 20, 2006
8:59 PM
Blogged by.. !●Γ℮ÐĦд●!™ @ 8:59 PM
dear busybodies,
thanks soo much fo having the time to read the shits of me..
aniway,
im confused with all the things happening around me right now.
sometimes i could'nt even differenciate between fact or fiction,imagianary or reality.
i guess this is wad happens when i get too much sleep,no wait,i dun wanna lie to myself again.thers been too much lying,backstabbing and gossiping revolving ard me...
i need a doctor,perhaps sum1 frm frm the Institute of Mental Health would be best to re-wire this brain of mine..
everything is going all over the place...
the controvercies after i left CDS kept on piling up...man,those are really hard to find...
and the....arghh!!!....stressed sak!
even practice didnt go well..
theres too much shit going ard and still accumulating in my head right now..
would'nt it be better if human have two heads and two brains so they can thinks better...but we will all be aliens by then..
everyone's behaviour is begining so the very "FUCK-TYPE"...yeah dats a new noun i learnt from non other than our STYLUS leader..FIRDAUS
to add to the shits' count...my memory is getting shorter than it used to...hmm.....
some other funny things happened..hmm...let me recall it...
ok here's one of it..
a fren of mine told me thru MSN that i need a gurl...ahahah!!!
and i was like:noo please!
reason wise i cant tell you alll abt it but let me say the very superficial abt it...
i dun want to experience love so deep then break off just like that
its soo fucking frustrating,fuckingly heart breaking and fuckingly mind blowing!!!
so Melissa,i noe ur the "my kinda gurl" but i will only start another relationship when i think the time is ripe...
next,
anione who wants to attent the hip hop gig at wld cc...u can purchase the tickets frm me aite!
oklah..im signing off
till the next entry............
MY LIFE,MY STYLE
