me. and only me.
alone,
on this lonely road.
i wish to break away.
from the pureness my life...
you grabbed my hand.
you screamed my name.
i felt it so real.
but i know it wont last forever.
its just me.
my life path,my destiny.
i feel you beside me.
bt you aint there.
you left me.
leaving me nowhere to go.
dreaming my way thru.
searching for something that i know aint coming true.
its just me.
alone being isolated from rationalness of the world.
how i wish you know whats on the inside.
you never came to realise how much you meant to me.
its just me.
caught between the stars and the moon
the moment enjoying the breeze and the fake laughter.
just how i wish it would last forever.
but no! its just a dream.
a blank nothing beneath me.
im stuck in great depression.
nobody knows and nobody cares.
just one fine day.
how i wish you came to know the truth.
realising my dreams and came to fulfil it too.
but its too late.
what i going to tell you is "dream your way through".
and you wil know how its feels being me.
caught in a world of horrible pasts.
im deadly sorry.
back
percik air laut menampar dingding perahu
bagai tingkah terbitan irama silamku
merah mataku bergenang berkaca-kaca
pabila lagu kenangan bermain semula
cintaku dihambat bagai kasih yang luka
sepotong kasih hapus didusta
bagai bunga kasih yang layu ditalu
kerna cinta hanya permainan mu
hapuskanlah air matamu oh wahai sayang
ku tahu ia hanya pura-puraan
tertolak ke lorong kecewa tangkai hatiku putus
setelah dimain oleh kekata halus
kau janji setia
kau janji lautan kasih
janjian manis yang hingga kini ku tak masih
dapat rasakan
bagai pelabuhan kasih yang usang
di lautan kasih yang tak bertepian
back
This blood turned into tears
A broken heart runs my body
Dripping forth until I give my life
I have become a sacrifice
It hurts me just to think of you
I void the pain that is unbarring
To know that I take these sufferings from you
back
forever your eyes will hold the memory
i saw your heart as it overtook me
we tried so hard to understand and reason
but in that one moment i gave my heart away..
i gave my heart away
in that moment i gave my heart away....
with that perfect breath where my mind lay beside me
and all i knew is what had overtaken me
with no reason i am comforted by inability to understand
forever your eyes will hold the memory
i saw your heart as it overtook me
we tried so hard to understand and reason
but in that one moment i gave my heart away..i gave my heart away
in that moment i gave my heart away....
FOREVER your eyes will hold the memory
forever your eyes will hold the memory....when i wake from this dream
will your smile still open my heart
and leave me transparent?
back
*in PROGRESS*
back
*in PROGRESS*
back
Thursday, May 08, 2008
9:30 AM
Blogged by.. !●Γ℮ÐĦд●!™ @ 9:30 AM
hey everyone.
suddenly i feel so gay updating blogs..
whahah! crazy or what..
so anyways,school is out and hols are in and i'm so not enjoying it right now.
seriously,i feel like i've no life at all!
i'll wake up late in the day,go for soccer training on certain days and sometimes i'll go
for cheerleading training..
yes ppl! im a cheerleader la sia!
hahah
okay i'll be resuming my profession as a camp instructor again soon...
atleast i have an objective when i wake up in the morning...
arghh!!
i just dont feel like myself anymore!
i feel lost!
i feel like living in a foreign body or what.....
dah kenape ngan aku ni!
so TP in like 20 days more..
cannot wait for that...
hopefully i'll pass this time...
and btw...
i'll be having a supernatural investigation night on the 31st of may..
its basically a ghost tour but with a twist...
instead of being on just another tour,this time participant will be the
investigator for the night!
yes,an investigator like me!
so if ur keen,pls tell me in advance..
fees:25 per pax(gift is given)
however if ur joining in a group,maybe i can give u guys discounts larr...
argh fuck!
cheerleading finals is happening on the same day too!
do come a nd support us(fantastic crew) if ur free...okay?
alright..im off
for now~~
MY LIFE,MY STYLE

Sunday, March 30, 2008
3:49 PM
Blogged by.. !●Γ℮ÐĦд●!™ @ 3:49 PM
its been dog years since the last update or what!
but not to worry,this blog is not forgotten...
okay i've got something to set you thinking...
lest just say u've got a pet.
u really love this pet.
its s special pet.
then one day u've found another pet.
u loved this pet more than the previous one.
then u start to neglect the previous pet till one day its being discarted from ur life.
then again u've found another pet.
again u start to neglect the previous pet till one day its being discarted from ur life
the cycle continues.
would u go looking for the first pet again even though u already have the pets that u've found?
what if ur the pet.
u saw how ur master disown u for other pets.
would u run away and hope that u'll find better owners?
or would u stay in the dark and still watch ur owners back?
*no answers are neither right or wrong..
is just something for u to think about.
MY LIFE,MY STYLE

Wednesday, January 16, 2008
5:05 AM
Blogged by.. !●Γ℮ÐĦд●!™ @ 5:05 AM
just to share some pics from my riau trip..


















MY LIFE,MY STYLE

Friday, December 28, 2007
1:41 PM
Blogged by.. !●Γ℮ÐĦд●!™ @ 1:41 PM
my room is rockin!
hahaha....
okay i just felt like blogging so im here to tell you about my room.
its painted in green, new beds and furnitures, a small office space, a new tv and a home theater system installed just for my room...
anyone feel like partying can drop-by anytime...
sstop it sak redha...mcm budak kecik...ahahah
so its already 5.44am when my fingers scrambling about the keyboard for this entry and i still don't feel very sleepy...
arghhh...someone with a good voice please sing me to sleep!
anyway,i just came back home and boy....i make a jolly good racer....
a friend just bought the all mighty honda crossroad and it smells like superbness!!!
i know all of you can't really picture me driving a car ...(some might actually say"sial lah this small kid drive?" like what happened at ECp when i parked a rented car there...)
so my bedroom door is vibrating like mad since i've set the home theater system to full blast(actually a lil bit louder than usual jer) and the bass reflex is soooooooo goood!
wonder if any of the neighbour will complain...hahaha
oh oh btw....
where are u guys gonna head down to party this 31st dec?
im sick of woodland countdown party...
maybe i should head down to the club...
what say u guys?
MY LIFE,MY STYLE

Blogged by.. !●Γ℮ÐĦд●!™ @ 3:17 AM
ola beautiful people! yeah im back,and hopefully will be constantly updating this piece of junk...
so, a little bit of updates about myself....
most of ya know that im a camp instructor...some don't...
but does any of u guys know that im a P.I?
hahaha...not that Private Investigator...but a Paranormal Investigator...
im part of this organisation call "Organisation for Supernatural Research and Investigations"
what we do?
track down ghosts,spirits,bunians and that such and perform a difficult task of proving their existence or debunking them...
we also had tours like the one we had recently organised for ITE Bishan..
it was all fun!
also..i've started to play football again with a new team...
Fushan FC....
as always,im the top scorer...hehehe..

okay i think i've briefly sum up all that i have to say....
now taggers do your stuff!
MY LIFE,MY STYLE

Friday, June 22, 2007
9:48 AM
sureena's entry
Blogged by.. !●Γ℮ÐĦд●!™ @ 9:48 AM
First; I definitely know that you are working now. Currently working as camp instructor. Redha love to lie to me! Like seriously lah. Tell me how can I be updated about you when most of the time you told me wrong information or lied to me. There a few times kan. ALWAYS! KENTOT AH KAU!
Seriously, Im soo behind time. I don’t know how your life now but I know your having a crush with a this particular girl which I forgotten her name. Sweet girl. &you are having difficulty in telling her your feeling yet I don’t know whether both of you are attached already or not.
Tell you already Im soo behind time. Lucky Im typing this to you ONLY ¬ your readers. Pfft! Asal kau degil ni. Aku dah cakap Im fucking outdated kaan.
That is why I want you to blog about what happened in your life. That is how I will find out about your life happening. &you asked me to blog. BAIK!
Now, redha is sooo busy that we never met for 297432984 days. Make time ok! Whatever it is, im still missing you. MEET UP SOON!!!!!!!
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zafirah's entry
Blogged by.. !●Γ℮ÐĦд●!™ @ 9:47 AM
zafirah is blogging for redha. again. he should be grateful to have such kind friends like me. thanks. hahahaa.
i dont know much about redha now because he has been distancing himself from me and probably the rest too. he's so caught up with idontknowwhat, probably being a camp instructor, having so many kids to discipline (HAHA) and entertain that he doesnt have time for his lovely friends already. that's just so sad can?
everytime i asked him when wanna meet he'll said he's busy. and when he asked me when wannna meet, i'll be the busy one. tak fated langsong! sheesh. i think it's been 29323928 months since we last hung out. very saddening okay. :( boo ah redha. cant you make some time for your lovely friends (lynn, sue and me) who are craving for your attention and time? :(
i swear i dont know what redha is doing now. i mean like what's happening in his life recently and all. we havent been chatting much either. eh redha, are you on school holidays or something? heh, i absolutely have no freaking idea. but one thing's for sure, i know he still loves us. AWWWW~
HAHAHA. thanks for giving me the honour to blog for you, again. -_-
biler mau jumpe! next week aku dah start skola. :( pape call/ sms okay. sayang kauuuuuuuuuuuuu! :D
MY LIFE,MY STYLE

latest post or wad!
Blogged by.. !●Γ℮ÐĦд●!™ @ 9:44 AM
i sent my close friends since sec school to blog about me and poof!
they did!
some were saddening while some are heart warming.
thanks guys!
MY LIFE,MY STYLE

Sunday, May 06, 2007
6:00 PM
Blogged by.. !●Γ℮ÐĦд●!™ @ 6:00 PM
i think my blog is being jacked!
hahahha....im sleepy plus i've lost my mood to post a new entry coz it took me 20 mins to log in.
so in that case...
toodles
MY LIFE,MY STYLE

Monday, April 23, 2007
10:14 AM
"aku treasure kau more then aku treasure die k."
Blogged by.. !●Γ℮ÐĦд●!™ @ 10:14 AM
Hello world.
Today was a blast after work that is.
met the few best people in m life (in no random order)
Zafirah,Sue,Seri,Sha,Fad & Rauzan..
alright,yesterday was Rauzan's birthday but the girls decided to celebrate
it today at RP!

ok lets move on.
lets talk abt one of the best people in my life
presenting....
Sureena!
She's the bubbly person whom you wouldnt get bored with...
she'll cheer you up and believe me,she'll do what ever it takes to cheer you up!
she know where and when to use her specialities....
which is very much appreciated!
hahaha...
she's slow,BUT she's CUTE lah!
her personality is none to match!
i love her giggles,the sound u would want to hear every noe and then...
a very good friend,infact one of the very best!
a person whom u can get very confortable with...
like ur favourite pillow which u'll hug and kiss to sleep..
heheheh...
a pleasant presence...mcm gerek gitu..
she's the rainbow after the rain...
and last but not least,her cute laughter...very addictive...
haha..oklah...theres so much of her that i cant put to words..
she's the kind of person who we can relate to THE WARM AND FUZZY feeling!
hahaha...anyways..thanks for being a part of me..
thanks for being the bubbly,slow yet cute girl...
thanks again for being you in some parts of me!
"you will always be loved"-rauzan
MY LIFE,MY STYLE
